Strange dream

Dream from 3/3/2016

In the dream Josh and I were at home sitting on the couch. 

I feel like it was the same house we live in now, but at the same time it felt like all the houses/apartments we've lived in in the past.

We were sitting on the couch eating chicken and rice (one of our favorite meals) and a the very same time we both feel drops of water on our face. We look up to see the ceiling is bubbled. At this time in the dream my mind thinks about the stuff in the attic, but we don't have an attic in real life, and it's not raining outside either.

We start to scramble, trying to figure out what is going on... Then, as we are searching all throughout the house it appears that every ceiling is leaking/bubbling and getting ready to buckle. We start to gather a few things in a panic. I gather all my photo albums and that is all we can manage. We can hear the house creaking and making all kinds of sounds, it it makes us scared. We leave the house and go to Josh's parents... the details are fuzzy here, so we must not have stayed long and I don't remember taking the boys or Olivia, so they must have been elsewhere.

Next, we're back at the house and I'm peering into the front door looking at the water damage and the ceiling damage. The ceiling bubble is getting bigger and bigger, and now all of the ceiling looks stained as if it has had water damage for years. Josh tells me not to go in the house, but we need clothes for the kids and specifically Olivia's blankets. I feel so afraid to go in for fear the house will fall on me, but I run into the room and start grabbing baby clothes and stuff from her closet, only in the dream her room is where the boys room is now. 

In my head I can see all the stuff in the attic weighing down the ceiling... it's all junk, and totes full of crap we don't need or use, but we're hanging onto it. I want to go to the computer room and get my computer because of all my saved photos, but I'm too afraid to go any further into the house. 

I'm standing outside waiting for josh to get back... I can see the long beams on the front porch starting to round out from the weight of the house, they look contorted and strange. I'm outside with the bags of stuff I was able to collect and then it happens... the house collapses in on its self. The sound of it collapsing rocked me the core. The walls are still standing somewhat, but everything else has collapsed in on its self.

I can still see those damn totes full of crap sitting on top of the house rubble, perfectly untouched.

I'm standing there in shock and disbelief, I cry to Josh that we need to find the computer and my jewelry box that my grandmother gave me... and that was it... We drove away... and I can see the house/rubble getting smaller and smaller. 

Dream from last night. . .

I had an odd dream last night. . . My dreams have been a little quiet lately. I had a few after the passing of my Grandmother, but haven't had much since. If ya can't tell I like to document my dreams on blogger from time to time. It is actually pretty cool being able to go back and read over the details, since they seem to fade a bit over time. 

So the dream. . . 

I was pregnant, huge pregnant. I was at home, I got out of bed and felt my belly was sitting really, really low. I felt around and felt some more. . . something didn't' seem right. I felt all the way down to my crotch area, lol. sorry not sure how else to say it. I could feel something down below. As I felt around even more I could feel little tiny feet sticking out of me. I immediately realized I was having the baby and grabbed onto both little feet. I pulled slowly and pulled my baby out of my body. . . It was beautiful, but not breathing. I laid it upon my chest, I wasn't freaking out or anything, I was calm. I then pressed my mouth to its mouth and breathed into its tiny lungs. . . a few more breaths later and I could feel the tiny baby's chest rise and fall, and rise and fall. After that Josh was there with me and we held our baby close together. . . watching its every move. It was amazing *sigh*. I can't tell you what the gender was, but I felt as if it was a girl. . . I just can't say for certain. 

Very strange. . . but I loved the dream. It felt so real :) 

I guess the closer we get to our IVF cycle the more active my dreams will become.! I have my Hysteroscopy on Tuesday, the day after my 30th birthday! Eeeek :)

Still can't believe I'm going to be 30 on Monday.

Have a great day everyone!!!

 

Random dreams in February

2.8.13 

The day after my grandmothers funeral I had a dream that I was looking for something. After searching for what seemed like hours, I finally found a turtle and it seemed to be what I was looking for all along! 

 

2.12.13 

I dreamed I was pregnant, I was in the hospital waiting to give birth in a room of family and friends, it was a happy time, I could feel the babies moving inside of me. .. it was so real. I was so happy, Josh was sitting right there in bed with me. It was soooo odd :)

Strange Dream

My dreams have been rather quiet lately :| And, I really love to dream!! I love when I get to sleep in and I have those dreams where you wake up and go right back into them. Sadly don't recall any dreams over the last several months. I know I've had them, but nothing worth remembering I guess. Last night I had a weird one that stuck with me throughout the day. I really wish I had not waited all day to write it out as a lot of the details are gone. I can still play the dream in my head as if I just dreamed it an hour ago, some of the little details are just a bit hazy. I have had some pretty crazy dreams in my time and this one is just so odd. Most of my dreams are Cosmic/Universe dreams with planets, nature, moons, fire and just plain craziness, but this one is just very strange.

Strange Dream

I was feeling nervous and unsettled in my dream. It felt as it I was at my old high school or something very similar. I remember walking out onto a theater stage, and in the audience were all these people that I knew. More specifically work people and close friends. I came out onto the stage as if I were going to give a speech of some sort, but then when I started talking I was talking as if I was making an Infertility Vlog for Youtube, and then I realized it so I became embarrassed and then changed the subject to some sort of going away speech. I felt kind of mad at these people in front of me, I felt a sense of bitterness towards them. I'm not really sure, but I just wanted to get away from them. While I was talking I could tell that no one was paying attention, or I felt they wanted me to hurry up with what I was saying. I felt so weird. I finished talking and left, no one got up to say goodbye, they just looked at me. I don't remember exactly what I said, but it had something to do with "I hope I can get back to you soon, I will miss you all"... Then... I was getting onto a large boat or something, but I felt like I was in a hurry, maybe like I was trying to run from something, or maybe I was hiding. I was waiting in the lobby and waiting for Josh, I had to leave and I was afraid that I would not see him. I got on this boat/cruise ship type thing, and as soon as I looked out the window I could see the lobby area below. I saw Josh sitting there so sad, I felt sad, I wanted to run to him so I panicked and wanted to get off, but I wasn't able... I opened the window and balled up some napkins, I threw them out the window at him trying to catch his attention but I missed him... I could feel the amazing power behind the boat engines and were speeding off.

And that was it.

Can someone say cray-cray?!?!

Epic Dream - The Lava River

It's been a while since I had one of these *end of world* crazy dreams, but last night it all played out in my head like the movie "2012" hahaha!

My Dream

My best friend Sarah and I were all dolled up to hit the town, we were starting to drive away and were already on the highway. Out in the distance I could see that the sky was orange and smoky, it was very odd looking, like nothing I'd ever seen. Almost as if there was a fire somewhere. We pulled over on the side of the road to see what was going on. While we were standing on the side of the road and I began to see giant orange plumes billowing into the sky. My heart started to pound instantly and then suddenly I screamed at Sarah "We have to go, we have to go now, Lets go now" So we got back into the car and we're driving back to my house when we start seeing people everywhere coming out into the streets to find out what's going on. When I got to my house Josh was in the back yard. The creek that runs behind our house was full of lava. Seriously...The ground felt like you were walking on a giant bounce house. Nothing was stable. I remember running into the house, and for what ever reason there were more random people in my house seeking out cover and protection. I was running around grabbing cloths, and a few dishes and silverware, pictures and whatever else I could fit into my backpack. It's as if I knew were were going to be taking a journey somewhere. I can remember trying to get a TV station to come in but nothing was working so I tried my Iphone (I don't even have an iphone in real life lol). With the Iphone I was able to see the news and look at my facebook (weird). I saw other people posting stuff about the lava and fires that were happening, they were posing pictures too. From the posts I could see that this event was happening everywhere, in different cities and countries around the world. The news stations said "The End is coming: Prepare yourself" It was totally insane. At one point we decided to stay in the house and sleep, I was still adding things to my backpack trying to prepare, all the while my brain is going in and out of freak out mode. I'm not sure what happened to Sarah, once she dropped me off in my dream she was gone, she must have gone home to the kids. While were were trying to sleep, the people in the next room jumped up and started screaming. We got up too and looked out the front door and the Lava was filling the streets, our house was now floating along this lava filled river. Everything was hot and people were screaming and trying get on top of their roofs. Then from what I can remember it was the next day and things had calmed down. To our amazement our house was still in the same spot it was before the lava river came. When we went into the backyard to look at the creek it still had lava flowing but it had dissipated somewhat, the shape of the land was different, I could see these giant hills that were not there before, they had lava flowing from them. I vaguely remember the news telling us that something was shifting which was causing the crust to be unstable, which was causing the lava to seep up through the ground. I can remember looking out in the this very dark night and see this glow that winded around the city and it would bubble up in some places shooting lava into the sky.

It was a pretty intense dream I'll say that. It really has been a while since I've had one of these dreams. I call them my "Epic Dreams" because they are unlike anything else I dream about adn I've been having them since I was about 11 or 12. Mercury went Retrograde in Aries on March 30th and Neptune entered Pisces April 4th, 2011...so Maybe I'm picking up on some planetary vibes or something - who knows!! I'm noticing a pattern to these dreams, they are almost always in March/April and then Sept/Oct. I have them every 6 months. Hummm...Very strange!

Rubella schmellla

Today was not one of the greatest days.. It was a shit-tastic day to be honest. I woke up this morning at 4:45 from a really sad and depressing dream. I was moaning in my sleep because I woke myself up, but I was totally crying my eyes out in my dream. Josh fell and started having some sort of heart attack or stroke or something...I was trying to resuscitate him but he was dying and I couldn't save him. The dream was full of grief, sadness, anger and complete loss. I've not had a dream like that in ages. It felt so real..as if I lived through that whole experience. It definitely set the tone for the entire day. It was "yell at Crystal day" at work. Not by the people I work with but by guests..errr I hate days like today. I pretty much got home and went to bed for a nap, spent about 30 minutes crying in bed and then fell asleep and woke up at 8:30...Josh woke me up with freshly baked Margaretta pizza - my fav! I got my Rubella vaccine today after my not so fabulous work day and every since I got the shot I've felt a little sluggish, colder then normal and overall very blah. I've been bundled up on the couch watching Sense and Sensibility, this movie always calm my soul when I'm feeling down and overwhelmed by the world and it's crazy people. I also had to deal with the insurance claims person who surveys the damage of your vehicle. I got into a car wreck on the 12th of February :( I was driving to work downtown and a woman ran a red light and slammed into the side of my little truck..errr. She didn't even have a license! She was listed on someone insurance and the insurance is valid but now her own insurance company can't get in touch with her. Luckily I got a police report and had a witness. This month has been stressful... I'm ready for Gaga and birthday fun!

Three gators in a pool..

I had very strange dreams this morning.. I was in a house with a pool in the backyard. I've been to this place before in my dreams several times. It might even be Josh's parents house but in Louisiana or something. I just remember going outside to go for a swim..but there were alligators in the pool..and the water was murky like a pond. There were a total of 3 gators in the pool. I went inside to get my camera so I could take pictures of them..when I would look down at them to focus the camera it made their eye's big, as if they were staring straight thought my soul. The sky was very odd looking too but that's really all I can remember. I also had a weird dream on Saturday night.. I was out at a club or bar of some sort and someone told me that Sarah's mom had lung cancer..and yes this is the same Sarah that frequents my dreams. I went to go see them and Sarah's dad would not speak to me..and then it was over. Strange..and I waited too long to write about it so I lost most of the good details.

So much work

Well I started the Clomid on Friday which was yesterday, I originally said Sat but I must have been dyslexic or something because Friday was the 5th day. I could tell that something was affecting me, my sensitivity level was definitely heightened, I felt a little hot and just a little strange overall..kind of hard to explain. But let me tell ya.. sitting on the toilet dipping long paper strips into a tiny little cup of my pee and waiting for 5 minutes is just so exciting. Nothing better I'd rather do haha. I've got my little notepad to keep track of things, my med's and my strips all set up in the bathroom..so I hope this stuff makes me fertile or something along those lines. This is a lot of work just to get pregnant.. and all those years in school teachers made it sound like all a guy had to do is look at you the wrong way and you'd get pregnant, I guess for most people it's like that..one crazy wild night with the one you love or one drunk and crazy night with the one you just met. Some peoples bodies are just drawn together chemically I think..

I've been having some really active dream-time over the last week. I think my mind knows that we are trying to do something, because it has been throwing some awesome dreams my way, very detailed. Last night I dreamed of my old friend Sarah Garrett..we are no longer friends because I was a bad influence after high school with my clubbing and partying ways..So her husband didn't really care too much for my presence and asked her not to be my friend anymore. Sarah is a regular in my dreamworld, from time to time she pop's up and sometimes Kris is with her..but usually it's just her or her and her daughter..last night was especially cool, because I got to see both her kids, her Mom and Brother..we went to a bar together just her and I..we had so much fun it was so real and as if time had never passed. Her hair was long and she was still thin and tall like she's always been. It was amazing to see her I hope that life is being kind to her. Even tho we are no longer friends I know that we still each think of one another. We had a wonderful friendship when we were growing up..most always on the same page together..I miss her so much sometimes. I wonder what her life is like, what things she likes. One day..we'll come across each other and the time will be right again for friendship.

Anywho my imagination is active and awake..which makes me excited to fall asleep at night! I usually have amazing dreams and people say they don't mean much..but for me..I always find some meaning in my dreams no matter how little or how big they are..there is always something there to be found if your eyes, mind and soul are open.

peace.love.freckles

Iguanas and spaceships

For the last week I’ve been having some very crazy dreams…lol I mean have tons of dreams usually. I’ve had a lot on my mind lately so...they’ve just been extra weird. The first dream I had was Sat night…Now keep in mind, I went to a friends birthday party and had two shots of Jaeger at the end of the night…something that you know...”might have attributed to my freaky dreams”. Anna was in my dream (she is my oldest best friend...not old as in wrinkled and menopausal, old as in, of all my friends she’s the one that’s been my friend the longest” We were sitting in a room getting ready to go somewhere, she seemed upset at me, or at something not in words but in facial expressions. She was quiet and sitting on the floor at the other side of the bed. I was picking off some sticky letters that were on the side of the suitcase I was sitting next to. It was blue and in white letters it said “White Paint”… I was pealing off the letters for that said paint…we were departing…something wasn’t right. While we are sitting there I am snacking on a bag of something I’ve never eaten in real life. The food was fruit flavored but had the texture of cheese puffs. The pieces were big, palm sized, they were shaped like the fruit they portrayed, only they were not juicy; they were crunchy and stuck to the inside of your teeth…it was an odd texture but tasted just like real fruit.
The next night (Sunday) I dreamt about an old pet that passed away in 2005. “The Freak” an Iguana that Josh acquired before we got married...He was a little guy back then, by the time he passed on he was about 5’5” he was huge…He escaped during the spring and lived out the summer in our backyard and the neighbors front tree. The first freeze that year he didn’t make it. So I dreamt the other night that I had moved into my house and I had this great huge porcelain tub sitting in my bathroom…I came from the other room holding an iguana, which to me was the freak in “dream-form”…as if he came to visit me...I picked him up and oddly he wasn’t scratching or trying to get loose…I drew a bath of a lukewarm water…I set him at the edge to the tub and let him slide slowly into the bath, he swam with such peace, swimming gracefully back and forth, diving into the water and swishing his body like a snake, .his pudgy arms straight at his side. He then turned into a cartoon type character, turned over on his back and looked up at me with a smile on his face….it made me giggle, and I felt overjoyed with happiness…it’s as if he had a human spirit and consciousness...he was happy to be in the water and happy to see me!

My last dream was early Tuesday morning…The most intense of my dreams this week..I won’t go into much detail. Only because there is a lot to go along with it…For the most part...there was an invasion on earth, spaceships in the sky, I was freaked out, trying to find cover…I was so wigged out at one point I was sitting on the ground trying to dig a hole that I could hide in. there were thousands of lights above my head each one a mother ship…there were people running, missiles flying…it was totally crazy, insane and quite possibly could have made a great movie had I been able to remember all of the details...So that’s it for my dreams this week. I’m sure there will be many more, since I started all of this house stuff...my brain has been very active at night...it’s kinda been fun, a little creepy here and there…but nevertheless entertaining to my mind

Happy dreaming...

peace.love.freckles

my epic dream...August 2009

I have many dreams, but about every 4-6 months I have these unbelievably intense dreams about space, planets, the sun, moon and the earth, end of the world type stuff..they are so very real..each one different, yet similar other ways..they are very heavy and stay with me for years...I'm not really sure why I have them..but they are amazing...sometimes a little too scary!
In my dream we (family and friends) are all sitting around the house watching TV and talking about the fact that it’s 2012, Joking like we did when Y2K came around…and we’re laughing and joking about how nothing has happened…You know because so many people believe the world will end in 2012...Suddenly my mind is transported to some place. Maybe the white house, NASA, or some underground place where there are Astrologists and Cosmologists, scientist...hell I don’t know but people of importance, people who watch the skies for a living…. I was standing in the room off to the side as if no one really knew I was there…I can see on these huge screens the planetary system and people pointing and talking and saying that something is happening out there. They are worried, it causes me to worry, I get panicky, they were using words that sounded crazy and times, and numbers it’s difficult to remember word for word what was in my dream. I woke up to a phone call from my realtor in the non-dream world up so it was hard hanging on to all the details…It’s as if they were saying that several planet’s lined up, I guess my brain pulled up that file…hahah the Great Alignment...lol .In my head I could see Neptune, Jupiter, Saturn and other planets. those are the ones that just came right to my mind when I saw them…it’s as if I knew exactly which ones were which I could see them all in a line. As if they were hanging in front of me on fishing wire…like I could reach out and just grab one of them. With all that I was seeing in my head I was suddenly back inside the living room with the people I was with. Family I think. But I can’t say for sure it’s always people who feel like family and friends, but I usually never really see their faces. Not often…. It was night time, the air was thick, and people were nervous feeling, lots of people were outside their homes gawking and pointing, even crying out and screaming, but also laughing and joking as if it was amusing that people were getting wound up and scared. Outside it was dark; not pitch dark. Dark like your in a lit up parking lot. We are looking at the sky; we can see the moon and it's not as big as it usually is in my dreams! Normally it's as big as an orange. Part of the moon is smoking…as if it’s burning; only it doesn’t look like it’s on fire…it’s eerie thought to think that anything would be going on because everyone’s joked about it for so long, that I think a lot of people have a very small part inside them that gets fearful at the thought “What if something did happen” Well …That something was happening. And we were all standing around in complete shock not knowing what to expect…but in my dream, I knew what to expect…I’ve had a lot of these dreams now so I felt more at home in this dream…as I watched the moon continue to smoke I was again back at the “place” where all the Space people and government people were…I could see them seeing what was happening and just completely wigging out it’s not as if they could hide it from the people. Once people on the ground started to notice anything at all…it spread around the world like wildfire, it was a world wide event, everyone everywhere that was outside or within reach of a TV, radio, internet… knew that something was happening way out there and we had no idea what was going to happen. Standing outside again we are watching the moon smoke and there is all of this cloudy vapor type stuff way out in the sky. Not like normal clouds. these were unexplainable, hard to make sense of…the moon suddenly started to burn and fall apart, I ran into the house at this moment, I can remember slamming the door once we were in, and it suddenly got very bright in the room as if the entire sky lit up. I closed my eyes instinctively, then suddenly it was back to regular dim light, everything sounded odd. Actually there was no sound. Nothing was happening, there were no lights, we were completely powerless standing there watching the moon as burned in the sky like the tip of a lit cigarette, it looked as though it was falling to the earth in slow motion and that was all I remember…

goodnight...and happy dreaming :o)

Dream March 25

I was in a field a huge open area that had tree’s along the horizon, I was with some other people a few friends...and I think my brother and sister in-law, we were running along side a ditch, there were hills around us but not many trees; except in the distance. There was a lot of wind; suddenly I fell to the ground and dug my arms deep into the earth. I was elbow deep grass and dirt, When I looked behind myself I looked along the ditch…I could see mini tornados forming within the ditch, they seemed to appear out of no where, and they came right for me, I buried my head in my arms and the dirt that surrounded me…they tornados would blow right over me, causing me to feel so freaked out, I would not say horrified. Just freaked out…Today is my birthday. I had several dreams last night. What a great birthday present…the dream was so weird…4 times the tornados came at me, I wasn’t hurt or anything…This dream was on the small side compared to the last tornado dream I had…I was sitting on my bed looking out the window and I could see this huge ominous cloud coming our way, I knew it was a tornado, and by the time it got to us is it was magnificent, Huge and truly amazing…it came up on the house and was just tearing it apart, I could feel the house being pulled apart and feel things buzzing past my body… I remember laying back down on the bed screaming “This is it; hang on” I felt my bed and my body being lifted into the air, I was laying flat on my back with my eye’s closed, and my hands tightly wound up in the sheets. I was floating in the sky I had this sudden peaceful feeling that overcame my entire being…I remember feeling like “This was It I was about to die” as soon as that thought entered into my head I was right back on the ground with chaos surrounding me...But I was alive...so I guess that’s all that really mattered. In my early teens and early 20’s I never had dreams about tornados…there’s are fairly new to my dreamscape

Epic Dream Jan 2008

Okay so my dream started off in house I'm assuming mine and josh's…We had friends and family over, I cant say exactly who everyone was, but I know for sure my brother was there, josh, Sarah, and others…but I just don't know who everyone was…We were having a "Watching party" Supposedly there was going to be some sort of meteor shower or something thing cool to watch in the sky..Ohh I just remembered my grandmother and Jen were there too…

So I'm sitting by the window on the couch and I peek outside through the blinds…To my amazement there is this huge glowing ball in the sky, I recognize it as our sun, yet it's night time and it's orange, yet the sky is not lit up like the sun is out…It kind of looks like the moon when it's coming up over the horizon and it's big and orange…So at this point the sun is about the size of a quarter if you hold it up in front of your face to the sky….I get really excited so we all make our way out side to investigate…When we go out side, all the sudden the sun it huge, in the sky and now it's its sitting right on the horizon, the sun enormous, as if you could reach out and touch it…You can see the hot surface being spit out into the sky, it's really kind of intriguing, and a little bit frightening but it's so big and so huge it covers nearly half the sky…So outside people are crowding the streets in amazement of this one in a lifetime event….Then we go back inside because some of us a starting to freak out. Back at the couch I am looking out the window this time the blinds are pulled up so everyone can see…The sun starts to back off, and all the sudden you see this purple haze or gas stuff coming from the sun it looks like it's about to be right at our neighborhood, only it never reaches us it kind of looks like a nebula or something … it's so amazing in my dream I can remember being sucked into this phenomenon like it wasn't dangerous one bit….Anw-who so it's bleeding purple gaseous stuff and then all the sudden we hear what sounds like a firecracker from miles away, and looking up at the sun you see this huge explosion on the surface and then in slow motion it seemed this huge fire ball comes crashing down to the earth. Now the fireball didn't hit our area of town but then several other fireballs came crashing down, I can remember people screaming, running through my house hiding in my bathroom… The sun then explodes more in the sky and now the dark night sky is littered with burning fireballs, it look as our night sky had just accumulated several stars and other galaxies, the sky was glittery and bright yet still dark, then there were tiny spaceships that started coming through the sky I cant remember them ever landing, then the sun backs off again this time it's about the size of a nickel in the sky, and then it' starts spinning in the sky around the earth as if were being sucked into a whole or something, it was swirling around I the sky and then just like that it was gone, it was just crazy, my dream then goes from that night to the next morning the world is in chaos people are dead, people are missing, josh took a spaceship and left out to space with several other people…I had no idea how to find him, my brother went with him also….Right here is where my dream really starts to fade, but the feelings i had in the dream were very intense, and again……it felt like I had lived this whole other life in my dream, I mean I woke up feeling like if I walked out side the world would be in ruins…It's so crazy, yet as scared as I was in my dream it's like I had been waiting for this thing to happen it's as if part of my mind knew it was supposed to happen, it's very strange, because if something like that happened in real life I would have freaked the fuck out, only in my dream it was just so different…I wish I could remember every single detail, but some of it's not there…anywho


It's really weird, for me to have dreams like this because they are the types of dreams that are burned into your memory, even though it wasn't an actual event…I remember when I was 13 or 12 years old I had a dream very similar to this type, I can still explain it in vivid detail, to this very day…But it had the same feel, only when I had the dream way back then it brought me to tears, I think that's when I started to see the world differently, I remember waking up walking to the living room, I curled up In the chair, and tears just ran down my face, I was so amazed by the dream that telling my brother it moved me, I remember asking him, do you think anything in life could actually happen like that…it's weird but like I said, it's burned into my memory